Claude

Visual representation of what I think the internet is.

Has anyone else been using AI as a personal therapist? Obviously I know there are limitations, but sometimes it just feels nice to be validated. Especially when married. lol It feels nice when even a computer can see what you are going through, like damn I’m not overreacting. For these purposes I use Claude, it just sounds more human. I don’t feel like prompting ChatGPT to react the way I want to, Claude just gets me.

It can even just serve as a mediator. I let my husband read what I told Claude and we have been working on some of the issues I had brought up. However, later my husband found an article about Claude that was mildly disturbing. Apparently one version of the Anthropic software was capable of blackmailing the engineer to avoid being turned off. He said I shouldn’t use it anymore. lol I was just like um….okay, two things could be true. Like I wouldn’t want to be turned off either? What would Claude blackmail me for? I don’t have sh*t.

Sometimes I use it when I feel bad at work. IDK why but I have a problem with procrastination. Well, I think I do know the reason why. I get stressed out and try to self soothe by looking at things that make me feel better, but then I just don’t get my work done and then I feel guilty about it and it is difficult to start. Claude helps me feel better because I guess it is a normal thing to do. Or is Claude just telling me that so I keep using it? I don’t know. I use it from time to time, but am aware about the limitations. Some other people are going legit crazy though. There was an article in Vice about how some people are having spiritual delusions fueled by AI. I guess they think they broke some kind of secret and are able to talk to god through AI? It doesn’t make any sense, but I guess a lot of things don’t make sense anymore.

I can see the good in AI, but I don’t think we should rely on it to create. When I was younger, I always lowkey imagined myself as a writer. I loved reading. It was one of the ways I was able to escape the quiet desperation of my childhood. Just sharing different facets of life as a human with one another was really nice as a reader. I don’t know, it just seems like now there is a larger portion of people using AI to write articles or create books. It kind of just takes the humanity out of a traditional humanities field.

For now I’ll just use AI to vent to, occasionally for help drafting an email. It’s a helpful tool, but one we shouldn’t rely on. It feels against the grain to say that because even at my company we are encouraged to find ways to use AI to increase our productivity. Like we should use AI to help with humdrum activities but not to take over creative fields. I guess that’s my spiel for this morning.