Procrastination

I’ve always been a procrastinator. I don’t know why I’m like this, but wish I wasn’t. It would have made life so much more easy, if I could just focus and concentrate on items. Alas, that was not to be my fate.

I used to procrastinate in school, but find myself doing it at work now too. I actually talked to Claude (AI) about this and apparently it is normal. I procrastinate because I feel anxious about something, then to self soothe I start doing or looking at something that makes me feel better. Then I start feeling ashamed about not starting and the cycle just keeps going.

I feel like I needed that break I took last week. Now I feel more like myself and am slowly chipping away at old sore spots. I’m going to do it. I’m going to finish the year strong. I’m getting back on track. Things are going to be fine.

I didn’t think I would get to this point again, because the first part of this year has been so tough. It’s hard to concentrate when there are literal concentration camps being built and used across America. There’s a large federal enforcement force (ICE) racially profiling individuals–to include both CITIZENS and immigrants–and carting them off to detention centers. Often catching charges for resisting arrest. But should it be illegal to resist an unlawful arrest?

Millions are getting kicked off Medicaid, the department of education is being dismantled, media corporations are bowing to the desires of a sitting president. It’s crazy how many people are just okay with the state of the world. Not even just okay, but actively cheering it on. It’s absolute madness.

Not to mention all the atrocities getting covered up with the nonrelease of the Epstein files. I guess the only good thing this administration has done has been expose how corrupt the government and corporations can be. It’s just out there in the open now. We are in the age of Aquarius now.

So I guess, I should cut myself some slack if I am a bit overwhelmed at work.